eternal loneliness

when sorry seems not to be enough...

2012-01-26T09:51:00.000-08:00

i don noe when u will be reading this post, but i hope its in a short amount of time...for other ppl, pls don ask wat happen.. thx for not asking..

i don noe wat to say. Seriously, my mind is quite in a mess. I know that i shouldnt do that at all. U were correct, i kinda like tricked u without telling u beforehand, although the thought of telling you did cross my mind but i didnt do it... guess i am a coward after all..

We were talking randomly, and all of sudden, they started to shift the topic to me and you together. And they dared me to do things to you, thanks to god that i actually managed to escape with just that action. They initial intention was far more worse(i am not blaming them la.. they were like this as always)

And then, thats when the worse part starts to happen. I seriously cant catch what you are trying to say when u wanted to talk to me... And about the post on your blog, i also cant figure out the meaning on the 1st one.. I apologise of using the term 'friendzoned' but... i cant really tell them the truth bout both of us as it will bring huge damage to your relationship life. And i know that i disappointed you yet again when u said 'believe in imagination'... and once again, i have no idea on this thing.. all i noe is that i kinda broke the trust between us..

All i ask for now is just your point of view, i just wanna to sort this thing out.. the guilt has been consuming me...
had been hearing this song repeatedly for today.. and i just realized that this song is breaking dawn ost.. one of the things that makes us closer..

I am truly sorry...

ntu life lo...

2011-09-06T08:19:00.000-07:00

well, life goes on.. i wrote this.. coz my friend wants me to update la...
firstly, i attain freedom... i can do anything i want without anymore restriction.. and of course be more independent... at least i learn how to think more maturely...

but.. of course comes the stress part.. its a new whole environment... i am not competing anymore with msians.. but with indonesian,singaporean and lastly, the geniuses.. ppl from china.. they practically doing nothing in tutorial while only glance to check their answer.. i had to copy answer and spend like 2 slpless night just to understand the theory and concept behind it... sooner o later, i will break down... haha.

I may be smart, but i am not a genius.. sooner o later i will reach a wall, yet it wont stop me from moving forwards.. i always tell tat to myself~~

and i starting to miss my family d.. and deliberately some1 important to me...
tat all.. tata

to all my friends who went to uni d, all the best!!

A Day...Haha

2011-07-15T08:31:00.000-07:00

well, my friend and I watched Harry Potter movie today... like a farewell since i going singapore to invent new bombs and drugs in NTU.. and this movie disappoints me... haha.. well, it cause i read the book so i will be able to notice the difference..but still have some standard la..

then we had a nice chat... throughout the period it was... in a simple way, lovely and blissful and nice...detail wise, lets keep it to both of us can d...

and it struck from a fanfic i read bout this thing..well, fanfic is a story written by fans by using their idols as characters.. so i will like to post this.. haha

wat is love ?

" One day.

One boy.

One girl.

One glance.

One smile.

One hello.

One handshake.

One friendship.

One hug.

One attraction.

One kiss.

One girlfriend.

One boyfriend.

One couple.

One "im in love with you."

One too early.

One fight.

One tear.

One comforting.

One real "i love you."

One happiness.

One life spent together"

although we may not do some of those listed above, but i would say this is more than enough... thanks for everything u given me...really appreciate it...

P.S: sorry for not being able with u to watch breaking dawn part 1... haha

i thought i knew...

2011-03-24T05:59:00.000-07:00

it happened again... difference is tat this time the scar is very deep.. i would say the pain she suffering is unimaginable..

i know her through my friend. she is my friend ex-gf and we started to talk to each other during ttn... when time flies, the amount of time tat we spent together, although cant be compared to the amount of time she spends with her close friends, makes us closer...

recently too many things happen in a short period.. so i snapped when i cant control it anymore...
i only know tat i am verbally scary when i snapped.. i practically shoot without caring anything anymore.. from now on, i wont snap anymore no matter how much stress i have. nobody shall be the victim of my wrath anymore.

nobody wins. both of us loses. both of us hurt.i just make a deep scar in her heart... an unforgettable 1... yet she still helps me after i did a bad thing to her. this morning, when she ask me for details(i wanted her help to scan my certs), i was deeply moved. if my tear gland would respond to my feeling, i am sure tears will be rolling down my check...

its nice to have a great friend like u. i am sorry for everything tat had happened. i just wish tat we could go back to the old times, both of us enjoying everyday...

70th post...

2011-03-18T09:44:00.000-07:00

its so long since my last post... well, live is just like the same... just some matters that i fell flustered for... since i cant solve it... haiz... seems tat this is the only place where my finger and my mind is in sync and perfectly...

i did the things tat i don like most... and repeatedly... towards a person who is very important to me.1st thing tat come to the mind of readers ?? girls o parents right ? its a GIRL!! ah, i am sorry to my parents... wondering who is the girl?? i dont think readers would noe unless its the GIRL i am talking bout...

i hurt her repeatedly... and sometimes i didnt know at all till she told me about it. this GIRL have brings many colors to my life. be it happy colors or sad, its has both though. But i really didnt noe tat wat i did hurt her unintentionally... the world inside me turn 180 when she told me tat...

if i were to describe myself, i guess briefly i am person who is abnormal and learns by experience... tat why if its my 1st time, i am practically a noob. i still remember tat i get scolded by my bro when i was taking care of him in hospital. but, it hurts her more when i say i dont noe... i am sorry... really sorry... this is the only i thing i can do... pls don get sulky...

ah kaichou is so nice... ahh... too much manga liao... my mind going to turn manga soon... like usui quoted in comic:this is the place where i feel the happiest,because there is a person by my side, for me to tease like this. and then misaki would get angry... its the same reaction as hers... aigo... though sometimes it would hurt her... not mentioning all those i didnt noe at all

thinking bout the GIRL really brings back the memory... kangsamida for all those beautiful memory tat u give to me... and i kept some too... like the papers.. and she make me hooked on twilight saga... haha... we r like jacob and bella eh, haha... apart from being a werewolf and have a muscular body, i guess i am like him a lot...
Just wanted to say it... u will always be my bella, no matter when is it, be it before or after reneesme appear, u still be my bella, holding a place in my heart...

i will confess 1 thing here, when i saw u with HIM, yes i would get jealous, even till now since the last 2 years... i cant help it at all... but i didnt show her. like the bella suffer-in-silence pattern. lol
for me i think tat he is your edward already... i have a feeling bout this tat both of u would be married to each other... haha. if so, hope i got to attend... it seems like he is the only 1 who have the antibody to 'fight' u... haha... i am not perfectly vaccined... tat why i do stupid things like this to u and hurt u... i am sorry again

ahh... i accidentally erase the memory card... ahh!!! all the pictures are gone... haiz.. i miss the picture of both the lions... haiz.

kangsamida for being such a caring person even towards weird ppl like me... i will try my best to think the answer for your question... its a promise to u... just give me some time... i would tell u the answer... its time to slp d... so slpy... annyeonghi jumuseyo

sooner o later i gonna have some basic in korean d, ah nichkhun is so handsome... and have nice manner... i wish i could be him... nichkhun, fighthing!!!

no idea for title

2010-12-25T09:11:00.000-08:00

here i am back blogging while hearing song... not in the mood to blog but did it just because i was waiting for download to finish.. hope it end fast.. need to slp enough

read few of my friends blog... as for a message to my friends studying at overseas, all the best and don give up!! if u have the intention of giving up, i suggest tat u take a rest and download a hindi show named 3 idiots... then for sure u will be motivated, i guess

lets see... if i don noe wat to talk but i noe actually my mind is quite in a mess.. lets start by the past.. my last blog post was 6 months ago, it was the 'love story-rain". i post it due to my feelings at tat time. it may sound weird, but for some reason, some of my memories is activated by song

jay ye qu- i remember when i was in my tuition center during form 2 reading form 3 sejarah
rain's love story- i remember bout my time and chris

as for her, it was snsd oh! its guess its because tat time i was hearing the song again and again..
the moment the song plays, she came into my mind... wat a sad experience but there is nothing i could do about it. tat reality and i had to accept it. i just hope tat we could be best friends forever from now on. those who noe she is, pls don mention her name here o tell her. i begging to the readers, pls.

as for studies, thr is something i am wondering all the time. Why ppl has always have faith on me ?why? why put hope on me ? almost every1 i noe will say this. "Aiyah, u sure get 4 flat one la!!"
but thanks to them, i could push myself forward. i just cant disappoint them... it wouldnt be nice to cry again due to disappointment. i still remember myself covering myself under the table and cried when i miss it during upsr.

thx for accompanying me, music. i guess i could call u my another saviour beside comic. all the artist, thx!!! snsd, i love u!!!

as for future, i still don noe. the only lead i have is my dream. i was in a school tat looks like high school and i was looking around hunting information for actuarial science. i wonder is it a clue given to me by god ? i say this because i actually ask god wat would be the best course for me... haha

need to wait for stpm result out b4 deciding

U were the 2nd person. The 1st was last 2 years.Both of u will become a nice memories within me. Thx for all the sad and happy memories tat u gave to me.I love both of u always.This is my true feeling.

My personal created quote:solitude brings forth loneliness, and loneliness is the mother of all despair

hope my next pose would be a simple 1..

Rain 비 - Love Story English Version

2010-05-28T19:27:00.000-07:00

every1 has their own song for every situation.. its like when u refresh of something past in your life then this song will auto play in your mind... this song is meaningful to me in some way... well upload the eng version so every1 can know wat he is meaning in his singing.. enjoy the song

Oh Baby there's something's that I have to tell you bout
Can't hold it in my heart
All this pain is breakin' me down
Thought I found my one true love
Couldn't show you how I feel
I was stupid baby my pride wouldn't let me be real

I'm asking for one more chance
Didn't know where you stand or
What your feelings demanded from me

I pleaded your wouldn't pass
You left me out in the rain
when you just walked away

This song is a story of a true tragedy
I gave up my heart
I tried to give you all of me
We've come to the ending somehow
I don't know what to do

But I don't wanna forget now
I love you baby, I still love you

This is the sound of honesty
I gave up my heart
I tried to be all I could be

My heart gonna wait forever
I'm still holding on to
All of our moments together
I love you baby, I still love you

We were so much in love
Tell me how could you forget
Wish you were here with me but
Memories are all I have left

It seems the promises
that you made to me were nothing
And you smile girl but I see your hurt within

I'm asking for one more chance
Baby give me your hand
So we can both understand this love
I pleaded your love wouldn't pass
all the pieces of my soul
want to live in your heart

This is the story of a true love tragedy
I gave up my heart
I tried to give you all of me
We've come to the ending somehow
I don't know what to do
But I don't wanna forget now
I love you baby, I still love you

This is the sound of honesty
I gave up my heart
I tried to be all I could be
My heart gonna wait forever
I'm still holding on to
All of our moments together
I love you baby, I still love you

Gotta close the door
Just like you did before
See my heart is broken
Baby I can't do it no more

Even though it hurts
I'll make a brand new start
And lay the rest all the moments
That played with my heart

But just before I do
I gotta let you know that
No man will love you more
So baby never forget

Listen, I'm without you
All I know is right now
I love, I'll always love you

This is the story of a true love tragedy
I gave up my heart
I tried to give you all of me

We've come to the ending somehow
I don't know what to do
But I don't wanna forget now
I love you baby, I still love you

This is the sound of honesty
I gave up my heart
I tried to be all I could be
My heart gonna wait forever
I'm still holding on to
All of our moments together
I love you , I will always love you, yeah

hmm... still cant think of any title

2010-04-16T07:07:00.000-07:00

well it seems tat my life has a common pattern... tat is out from house since morning and back at house at night...

well when i was still a kid, i was admitted into 'prison' (actually its just daycare ttn)... normally went thr from 8 am to 6-7pm coz my brother is studying thr.. and it lasted when i was 4 years old to standard 6.. schooling day it would be after school straight go thr and until 6-7 lo...

from f1 to f3, still at this prison but the 'detention time' increased... would be after school till 9 pm...
since 7-9 is extra ttn given to f1 to f3 students... mr.neo, whom i respect very much, is a very good educator and teacher to me... sadly tat i cant get any news bout him anymore when i am released from this prison after f3..

f4-f5 well life is like more relaxing, no prison anymore jus ttn... i will just force myself to go thr early so tat can study awhile, so normally wont go home but its only certain days...

f6: its the worse case ever... why??? let me tell u
weekdays: leave house at 6 and enters house back at 9 o 10 something at night...
weekends: depends... if got car to use it would be the same case as weekdays

anybody has words to describe a level which is more worse than insane ???

any title also can la...

2010-03-06T19:08:00.000-08:00

things changed!!! most importantly, i am not the old person i used to be

to those who noe me since young, imagine me going to a ttn for 16 hours in a week... lol
the ttn only have 8 hours per week for science and arts so total is 16 hours... some wonder why i go for arts too... reason ? at home got laptop can't do hw... go ttn can lo... haha...

ppl say me ke siao liao.. don care la... can finish hw can d... hw r revision to those ppl who r lazy(i am one of it)

decision???

2010-01-15T23:57:00.000-08:00

my family always says tat i am slow in decision making... tat the real reason why i entered form 6 instead of pursuing courses... coz tat time i don noe wat to pursue nor my ambition nor interest...
if anybody ask me now wat my ambition it would still not be answered...

somehow i see bout actuarial science... well, i read review on this sub and it seems very very hard...
its not like u graduate means u r an actuary... u need to take papers only u r considered as 1..which of cost the paper arent easy...

well, places to study in m'sia o singapore are taylor ktar help uni and ntu... taylor r out of option since its 2+2... 2 in m'sia and 2 in us... it just too far.... ntu, wat i scared most is they need band 5 but they don state in the requirement... as for ktar and help, ktar would be the better choice according to wat my teacher say... its in setapak so problem is jus accomodation.. but i think it could be solved...

let see how and hope it would jus go smoothly... worst case scenario is my bro will be asking me the reason why i wan to take this sub and i don noe wat to answer... seriously i don noe why i consider this course... but if this is the course i wanna take then i need to work hard!!! screw those homeworks!!! u will not drag me down!! i will finish school hw... as for ttn i will try my best

jus a short 1...

2010-01-08T18:36:00.000-08:00

muet result r out next monday... and lately the bombing incident, i don noe wat cause it but for me is plain stupid to bomb other people religious place jus because u r angry of it o something, be it the culprit is chinese o malay o maybe even guys who r christian, u jus too stupid to not to use brain to think... wat the benefit u get from bombing religious place?? Nothing!!! jus rage from others!!! and this will affect 1malaysia like najib said and our country pride... stupid culprit!!!

let hope those who take muet will get the result the wished for...

upper 6 life...

2010-01-06T02:45:00.000-08:00

things changes... principal decide to extend our schooling time to 3... well, many complain(of course...) and we need to use some stupid attendance and behaviour card for survilliance purposes... zzz wat the hell is the principal thinking... and force us to buy diary somemore and let our parents sign it to check.... u think we will do tat principal ??? use some brain pls...

and the plan was going on smoothly.... and my facebook acc is deactivated by me due to some idiot whom i think hacked into my acc o its my own fault for not logging out when i use in my bro com... but i think its being hacked... so if any1 wants to find me then the only way to contact is by text o call me...

lets hope my plan will continue as long as possible... and derrick, ragnarok may be interesting but i think i will be bored by it sooner o later so i am not going to play it... looks like mmorpg is not my type of games... tat all for now... 1o more months to go...

if fatigue and lack of slp is the part of the price to achieve success, i am willing to pay it... next time...

gomenasai...

2010-01-01T21:18:00.000-08:00

as the title suggested... its sorry in japanese... i didnt update my blog bout 3 months + i guess.... some of my friends come and complain... well, again gary give me idea and inspiration to write a post... tx to u dude... so i will follow his style, lets say bout wat happened last year but i will start from Dec'08

Dec'08- start to work... known how hard is to earn money at least... and know some collagues which
happen to be all girls tat time... and during the 1st day i entered, a blackout happen... my
luck, i wonder this thing very much... everything start good for me and it becomes worse
and worse...

Jan'09- i guess tat when chris enters.. nothing much happens, only my bro from australia comes
back and i get his old lappy when he returns, in the end i need to pay 400 for his new
lappy... haiz... and maybe tiff too.. then thye siang put her pic on blog and make a huge
misunderstanding...

Feb'09- nothing special happened i guess, is just work and work and play arcade games...

Mac'09- spm result is out... the unexpected happen to me... and i still remember gary saying like
i will kill u if i get bad result... coz i call him to watch quantum of solace b4 exam starts..

Apr'09- i guess tat when the flood happens... and shoplifting becomes worse and worse... its
definitely something wrong with my luck trend.. haha...

May'09- stopped job due to f6 starts... and go to high school to study... thrown into alpha... which
most teacher expect the most from us... i hate it... kesian mr. shu...

Jun'09- study life starts... and complains also starts... we r always get complained.... but later
seems tat beta class also get our virus... know more new friends... and my math teacher
enjoy hitting us...

July'09- i think tat when our class has more members... which mean have more problems... and
every1 has their own position... then i was chosen as monitor... haha

Aug'09- nothing much happened... most memorable is pek birthday and i think tat when kit fai
starts to like her ???? haha...

Sep'09- yeah... finally its here... seems tat many birthday r celebrated.... the most important is
my birthday la.. my blog... priority is me... i am being pranked during birthday... weijie
pakat with prefects to prank with me spot check handphones... and i get a watch as
present....

Oct'09- i guess tat when i started wan sim ttn for math... a funny teacher.... and final starts too...
and winford going round the class saying 'U mark my word, man'.... haha

Nov'09- after final programme... gaming season... dota, need for speed and most important, left
4 dead... had my intense training for 2 weeks... holiday starts..

Dec'09- holiday and wan sim rest for 3 weeks... tat when i start slacking and comic searching and
final fantasy songs... like bout going 2 gb are jus ff soundtracks... and things happen...

this 2010 will be the determining year... i shall be more disclipined and hard working... hope tat the plan of mine wil work....

result ? 2

2009-09-15T01:16:00.000-07:00

today during free period suddenly they announced tat our result is out... but i don really care... don have the urge to see it...

coz brain was stuck with many things... jus too many things happen recently... haha... and then tat time my muet teacher was OVER-DEMAND... so i was quite pissed off...

and went to phy lab and jus took a glance... 31/180++ was my ranking for the whole f6... haha... which i was glad bout coz i don really expect anything more with this kind of result... 1A- 2B- and 1C+... cpga of 3.08 also can get 31.. i should be grateful...

and turn out tat i am 2nd in class after jared... once again thankful... i thought i will get 4th o 5th... haha...

tat all for now... now its time to improve... means i will get tired everyday!!! haha.. gary, i shall not disappoint u...

updated...

2009-09-13T01:01:00.001-07:00

well the story is updated... but is not really a complete 1...

on my blog click the link 'life after form 5..'

realise something...

2009-09-11T20:50:00.000-07:00

today jus read gary post... and it makes me think and come to a point...

as my form teacher say... i should be more courageous and brave... i guess he wanna say tat i lack of self esteem... cant be denied.. i am lack of it

then gary say tat i will cope with my f6... means he trust me tat i can do it...

if they say can means i can actually do it!!! i shouldn't look down upon myself and let them disappointed!!!

i will try my very best for the final!!! tx gary for making me realise this point... i should be confident of myself but not too much la... haha

birthday..

2009-09-10T02:34:00.000-07:00

10/9 was my birthday every year... haha... so summary for wat happened today is...

wake up slpy from bed as usual.. breakfast as usual... go to school as usual...
and i brought phone illegally to school coz i need to use somehow...

class starts... discuss math hw.... and then free period...

today i kena pranked till very jialat... for wat happened i won say coz i am sure somehow one of my friend will blog bout it... let them express those moment.. and tx for the cake... i appreciate it...

then after school... went to mcd to eat... saw my class teacher thr... lol... sir a... haha
and got a watch as present... tx very much to those who bought me the present... all the current alphan and 7 others(matt, agnes, ruling, tong, mike, michelle, quin)... tx very much..

this is the 1st time tat my birthday was celebrated so 'grandly'... haha... tx everyone for the wishes and make a wonderful memory for me... i shall not forget those moments... if the process is recorded down then i will keep it forever!!!

tx everyone especially Weijie !!!! u put the most effort... i appreciate it very much!!!

and lastly sir, u pakat with them la mainkan me... u watch out, haha!!! joking only

and once again, tx for making this day a wonderful 1 for me... i am touched but i just couldnt cry it out... haha

personality test... quite true

2009-09-07T01:47:00.000-07:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.(am i straightforward ??)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.(looks really aren't important to me...)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.( i not sure...)

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.(still waiting for the time to come... haha)

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.( i think so... )

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.( i guess tat may happen...)

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.( true... i hate failure)

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.( yeah... correct...)

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.( yeah again...)

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx... here the link if u wan to check

.... don noe wat to put..

2009-09-04T05:29:00.000-07:00

f6 is tough i guess...

eng, general studies and chem- 60 something

phy and math- 50 something

haha.... jialat... no hope liao... haha

things gonna change... end year

let see how.... i will try change my way to study

jus to update.. 2

2009-08-31T00:26:00.000-07:00

hi guys and girls... its going to be 2 week tat i didnt post anything... well, nothing much changed

jus tat...

old damn symptom coming back... the laziness symptom... don have the will to do anything...
except for playing game o watching show and comics...

the 1 week holiday, 60% of my time jus spend on dota... i didnt even touch my books to revise... haiz... how can i cure myself from this disease ???

test result coming soon... maybe tat will be the 'key' to change me... haha...

stressed ??? am i having it???

2009-08-18T02:32:00.000-07:00

today last period, my pa(pengajian am a.k.a general studies) was late for class, so i went to find her as i am the monitor even though she says tat no need to do so... she sure will enter class...

and i went down 3 blocks to search for her and i saw her coming... so i waited for her to come and we went up together... and she hit me at the back for 7 o 8 times when we going up the stairs...
i guess i must have something in me tat cause many GIRLS like to hit me!!! haha... its still true till now...

and during walking up the stairs, she said those words where she said it 2 months ago... "Ming Ann, u ok o not??? why look so stressed ?? u have any problem ???"

teacher, do i always look so stressed to u ??? i don noe... for so long this is my first time saw this... stressed?? does my face project tat i am stressed ??? my friends say tat i am emo by seeing my face, tat i can understand but stress?? haiz... but when i think back my teacher words, it does makes some sense... maybe i am stressed...

haha... anything la... my friends, do u think so ???

law mei birthday...

2009-08-16T04:45:00.000-07:00

last friday we celebrated ah mei birthday, the only girl b4 another girl comes up from delta... peii hwei...

this is their pic...

and for more info and pics, pls see my friend, andy mau blog.. tat his link....
http://andy-mau.blogspot.com/o on my blog look for 'A place to express'

btw, pek, u 18 d also not useful 1... ppl 18 means can drink beer legally yet u can mabuk from little sip of shandy nia... SHANDY!!! so little alcohol content... haha... but now u can enter shows which r 18... haha

another 1....

2009-08-12T09:36:00.000-07:00

another post for fun...

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
我愛你不是因為你是誰，而是我在你面前可以是誰。

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚，值得的那一位，不會要你哭。

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
那人不是你所想般愛你，但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手，觸動你心靈的人。

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
掛念一個人最差的方式，就是你坐在他身旁，而知道你不能擁有他。

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
就算你不快樂也不要皺眉，因為你永不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。

7.. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
在世界裡你可能只是某人，但對某人你可能是全世界。

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
不要花時間在一個不會花時間在你身上的人。

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人，讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
不要因為完結而哭，要為曾經發生而微笑。

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人，你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的人。

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前，先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解你自己。

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.
不要太努力去找，最好的東西是在你最預計不到的時候出現。

girls don realise... anyway its jus for fun...

2009-08-12T09:14:00.000-07:00

this post is for fun only... no offence meant here...

Things girls don't realize....

1. Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer than you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

2. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a bitch Goodbye.

9. Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?!..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

10. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

11. Guys are very open about themselves.

12. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

14. Guys love you more than you love them.

15. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole hell of a lot.

16. No matter how much guys talk about butts and boobs, personality is key.

17. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

22. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me.'

23. ,b>If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

24. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

25. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

26. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

28. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

30. A guy would give his right nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

31. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

32. Not all guys are jerks. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of them.

33. They love it when girls talk about their boobs. haha it's true..

34. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually

35. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs.

36. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts.

37. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

38. Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.

test is coming...

2009-08-10T07:29:00.000-07:00

f6 1st monthly test... 17-18 august... haha... 1 more week only...

if i fail, i don noe wat will happen to me... seriously... i may isolate myself(though i am doing now)and being alone...

i am sitting behind as precaution if it really happens... i may not talk to anyone for quite a long period unless i have too...

and i am sorry 1st if during those period i may offend any of my classmates and other friends...

i like this pic very much... i think coz it represents mostly bout me??? grey bg... despair... even cloud face also looks sad... i guess i am addicted to final fantasy 7... haha

why??? why???

2009-08-02T17:56:00.000-07:00

jus an hour b4 i write this post... bout 7 something i woke up to on9 coz i didnt on9 yesterday...
so normal routine i will see my friends updates in their blog... and i read 1 of my friends newest post...

it get me shocked... i didnt noe tat till he say it out... yet he hid it for the pass 2 o 3 years... if i were to be him, i might gone crazy.... to think tat his dad beat his mum and then things happens... its all due to gambling... Gambling could really bring disaster to family and everyone... i am sorry tat i had bad impression on u last time... i wonder did u tell anyone at tat time bout this???

if i were to be my friend in tat blog, i might go crazy and hit my dad... tx god my dad isnt like this...
if he is like tat, he will suffer...

another thing yet happen last 2 days.... its bout my bro...
he had a gf now who is christian... i am not saying bad bout anything...
yet my mum said tat if she is married to my family she need to convert to buddhist... wth????
wat the logic behind this... she need to burn joss sticks when she enter??? why cant she maintain her own religion???

is thr any wrong having your life partner who has different religion than yours??? tell me!!!
i am seeing nothing wrong in this matter... i could imagine my bro at church waiting for his gf to finish her prayers... and she could jus come to a temple and sit down thr quietly....

mus we find someone who has same religion with us??? why cant we.... i don know how to complete the sentence.. damn!!

haiz... dad, mum... your old fashioned thinking cant be applied in this modern world anymore...

i don know wat title to put...

2009-07-29T06:38:00.000-07:00

jus a normal post... today my friends and i went to mp thai kuang to see books... as i don have a watch so i don keep notice on time... i asked my friend and says 4.15

.... at the car i was getting lectured by my dad saying a man should be punctual... fine...
i wait for them till 1 hour also i cant complain... they only wait for me 15 mins... yet the sound it like it was a huge crime...

my dad asked me to get a watch from house... let u noe dad, if u see watches at house, means its not working anymore... got it???

i also wan a watch... u think i don wan???? i did set my target upon 1 watch at dp... jus tat it cost rm39... why spend so much right???

i don noe how... i need a watch now but i don have any spare at house... and it cost 39... how???
haiz...

delayed post 1

2009-07-20T03:49:00.000-07:00

didnt blog for a real long time... so i will sum up wat happened between this 2 months in f6 for my class...

it started with 15 students... 7 sfi, 3 stpm, 2 ijc, 2 mhs and 1 gbs... then as time passes, 1 by 1 left us... due to jpa and private u offers... so leong hong is going private u (i don know which u), jia chun(i think mistaken spelling) goes to sunway, kang sheng went to local u to study german b4 going to germany for engineering, kim chern go to mmu, mun yee to nottingham, yen xia to utar and chun voon to kdu...

then left 8... willy enter (transfer from yok bin) and then candra join our group today making the class not pure MCA anymore... haha... so now is 10... heard tat they will be reshuffle after 1st monthly test...

hope tat all 10 of us will stay in the class...hope not even 1 of us will change coz without any1 of us the class would be boring...

let say if my class is without these ppl :
1)kit fai: nobody would be able to shoot him for his albert einstien theory... he is jus addicted to
him
2)derrick:we would see kit fai dropping out from chair suddenly o jumps up when he tickles kit
kit fai
3)willy: king would be bored... willy always kacau him and nobody would noe bout reborn(anime)
4)king: class would be bored during mr khoo(maths paper 1) period as he is always the victim..
coz he monitor mah...
5)jared: nobody to refer to when we don know questions...
6)pek : no supplier especially sweet... she always have sweet around her..
7)me: err... no math homework for my friends to copy???? i don noe....
8)mau: nobody will "sa wa di kap" weijie... haha...
9)weijie : main havoc king in our class... class would be dead without him...
10)candra: sorry mate, jus noe u for less than 24 hours.. so no comment..

so all alpha, chiong so tat we can stay in our beloved class... the combination of teachers also good from my point of view... pia for these few weeks la...

mun yee(left)which left us d... so left pek nia... kesian her.. the only girl in our class... now is 9 male 1 female but..... only alpha noes...haha...
class pic b4 mun yee leaves and also without candra...

criminal in action..

end of product... enjoy the new name given to those things..
mr.shu...our class teacher a.k.a the god of fortune... we call him this for a reason...
again only alpha students noe it... haha....

ok next post would be up at a short time... wait patiently...

jus to update..

2009-07-15T10:06:00.000-07:00

lately didnt update... coz don have the urge and time to blog... but i will promise to blog after i have free time... briefly i will write a post for my bro and my current life in f6 and also wat happened for the past 2 months... bye for now... be patient..

chem exhibition and birthday party!!!

2009-06-23T08:25:00.000-07:00

today was the school science exhibition... so i participated in the chem exhibition... haha... but also do snake from 9 to 12... from my own team, doing the piercing the balloon without exploding it... then go around other tables which do other experiment like volcano and making the expand... and finally settled at ruth station which makes cornstarch suspension a.k.a 'facial treatment' which i name it... haha... then sometimes run go phy lab go see wat happening then come down again to chem lab... haha... then play with the starch ball and explain to them wat happening... lol...

the balloon piercer

one of the beautician, ruth

the 2 beauticians, angeline and ruth... eh, geli la...

then after tat marching practice and then go for my mum friends daughter birthday... haha...
jus eat then wait awhile b4 cutting the cake... then reach home by 10 something... means i am out for more than 12 hours today... i am very tired...

the 1st birthday cake....
the 2nd birthday cake which is actually spare when i ask my mum friend...

the birthday girl...

hectic week..

2009-06-22T02:40:00.000-07:00

finally have something to update...

life in f6 is fun and challenging till now... u have to active in koku if u wanna get higher chances to enter u... which means u have less time to study... so its challenging... it test your time management skill which i suck in...

and this week is a hectic week... jus don have rest for the whole week...

tuesday: chem exhibition, march practice after school( till 4.30 i guess)
wed: koperasi meeting(discuss hari karnival and probation for pengawas koperasi)
and i kena selected to become head for the hari karnival which sell things jus coz i approach
my president to ask bout the next meeting....
thursday: marching practice after school
friday:hari karnival (9-12) then marching competition then tuition(3.30-6.30)
sat: 2nd day for hari karnival...

tired a... homework no need do d... and if teacher throw homework to us means die lo... now the school and tuition chem homework also haven finish... die lo... haha

thoughts..

2009-06-07T04:41:00.000-07:00

this would be partly continuation of the previous post...

i hid my loneliness from friends...
i do it for 6 years...
i wonder how long would i need to continue it...
i noe some would call me to not to hide it..
i am sorry...
i jus couldnt do it...
no one needs to be suffering along with me...
i alone would be enough...
there's no need to drag my friends...
i noe the time for me to open up would arrive
is just matter of time..
for now i will jus hang on...

i wish i would have Edward's ability...
the ability to read someone's thought...
i wonder if i have
wat would my friends think in their mind
when i deliver the disappointment to them
they may be thinking..
'kinda expected... he is always like tat...'
and some would think
'why his mum always like tat... locking him around'
and the thought of my mum
when i approached her asking for permission..
she may be thinking...
'outings again?? waste money only...'

this life...
rarely have outings and studies???
used to it already...
for 6 years... and it still continues..
i don how long it would last..
but i noe i will jus hang on...
for now if i have a wish from them...
i would jus ask for more freedom..
jus more outings but with a limit...
i noe a fact..
thr r times to play and times to study...
all i hope is...
my life wouldnt be 100% studies and 0% entertainment...
this life...
i gotta continue it for 1 and a half year...
i wonder wat would happen to me???

things will move on...
i will jus go on with it...
accept this life...
telling sorry to my friends...
not expressing my loneliness and pain to anyone...
other than to myself...
or the other me in my mind...
no one shall suffer along with me...
i noe some would feel sad..
wants me to open my feelings to them...

this is 1 quiz i took in facebook... is true.. note the last 2 traits... tat why i would let anyone suffer along with me..

Ming took the Personality traits by birth month quiz and got the result: September..

September: Suave and compromising
Careful, cautious and organized
Likes to point out people's mistakes
Likes to criticize
Quiet but able to talk well
Calm and cool
Kind and sympathetic
Concerned and detailed
Trustworthy, loyal and honest
Does work well
Sensitive
Thinking
Good memory
Clever and knowledgeable
Loves to look for information
Must control oneself when criticizing
Able to motivate oneself
Understanding
Secretive
Loves sports, leisure and traveling
Hardly shows emotions
Tends to bottle up feelings

tat all... i go do homework... haha...

don know wat to say..

2009-06-06T05:45:00.000-07:00

so holiday comes... usually holiday is fun for us why ? no school mah... can lepak with friends... watch movie... take a break from this tiring routine...

u don wan to let me go out with friends, i really don happy but i jus suck it up... i don complain although i wanted to shout at u... i noe is waste of money... but i exchange money for friendship... is a deal which i see worthy... so wat if u have plenty of money but no friend???

suan liao lo... let it go... maybe less outings will help me in my study...

now, u wanna complain a tuition which is far... wth??? i noe its far but i willing to sacrifice for it... now is money for a good teacher and brighter future... and its only 1 day per week... means u jus need to fetch me 4 times per month... from ayer keroh to near pay teck thr... i noe is far... u think i don have common sense??? but i think for u and myself... i am sure u r happy if i could get 4 flat...

yet u complain its far... easy lar... i don take any tuition... i study nia... then i do not well in exam... u start to give me excuse blaming on me... say i lazy o watever... then stpm didnt get 4 flat... no need think bout scholarship.. then i take a course in local u... u happy ???

u sure happy nia... save money... save energy fetching me... think bout it... u fetch me( o maybe i will be going down myself) for only 1 year and half... tat all.... then who knows this may help me in studies and my future...

i don know wat to do... i will search for other alternatives... i will find those who r nearer... disappointed... money over future...

p.s: wat my facebook say its true.... i hide my loneliness from everyone... and i did it for 6 years... and i guess i gotta continue for a very long period...

lionel's farewell..

2009-05-29T18:22:00.000-07:00

b4 i go to the main point i will tell something bout our class act yesterday...

after recess, our chem teacher didnt enter... i don know why... so we do usual act... talking the whole way and wei jie would playing with his hp( ya, he almost break the school rules everyday) and being caught by one of the girls... so he say

Wei jie: all steady a, who bring hp plsa take out( in Mandarin)... suprisingly 4 ppl bring out their hp... one of them is girl... which we doesn't expect tat she will bring... and we start to exchange phone no by writing on the board.. here the pic
then at 4 something went to lionel house... 1st thing we do??? normal mia... DOTA!!! play at his house 1st... then go cc... haha... come back to his house back and play his ORIGINAL PS2 which brought at France... but only can play ori mia... play tekken 4... haha... ppl say i like a small kid still playing and also bullying other kid... coz i win 15 straight in a row... then we have the feast...
here r some pic...

(chee wee, kenny and soon jie)

siva and kye wei... me playing tekken 4

soon jie, james and jian hong

time to makan...

the pure xbx group.. haha(xbx= chinese speaking group)

photo with the birthday boy and leaving boy

singing birthday song to him
he blowing the candle...
the pure xbx and sfi mca gang... haha!!!
finally kena screwed in head... haha!!
the one lar...
group photo 1

group photo 2
group photo 3
mau(the one supply pics) and lionel
me and him

the thing he will bring to france... additional keyboard jus for dota i guess

tat all guys... bon voyage, lionel!!! we will miss u... lukmander, come gg... haha

life so far..

2009-05-27T05:42:00.000-07:00

finally can find things to update...

so my life for now is wake up at 6 everyday and study the whole day till 2.40... and its until 4 after holiday coz co-cu starts... which means it will be tiring everyday!!!

guess i will intro my teachers... my pa (pengajian am) teacher is very kuai lan 1... a good teacher but can make ppl piss off nia... she always:''Ini kelas Alpha, kelas physics terbaik, semua genius mia... mesti boleh buat'' then expect us to excel in everything... exercise cant have wrong..

then my chem teacher, mdm lim... another 1... expects us to understand wat she teach... common sense lar teacher... normally spm teacher won teach balancing equation in detail coz they don have time...

phy teacher, mr.wee.... a good teacher... jus like my previous school phy teacher.. sama attitude..heard tat he is famous all over in malaysia... even outstations students know his name...and our muet teacher, miss priscilla... always went to the class and make speaking and reading skills... i don know whether she knews o not she like to touch topics tat make girls and guys fight in my class...

and our maths teacher... for paper 1 is mr.khoo.... a good teacher and also kuai lan 1... use name roll to choose his victims...i am the 1st to kena today... haiz... tx god i noe the answer... he made the syllabus to be understandable... and our paper 2 teacher who is also my form teacher, mr.shu a.k.a god of fortune( coz he like to wear red) is ok nia... i guess he is not used to speaking english and lack of experience...

and holiday will be going back to school for tuition... 4 hour straight for 1 sub... aiyo torturing man...and today i watch night at the musuem 2... was a nice show... i wanna say sorry for a friend of mine... we promised to watch together but i broke it... and to my mum too... for making u wait for so long...

the cutest part and the weirdest part for the show is the einsten part... there were bout 7 o 8 little einstein thr and its looks so cute... here comes the weirdest part... ben stiller asked them to decode the combination so 1 of the einstein say:"It's bout Pharoah, so its a pyramid!!" and yet suddenly pi comes out... pi is for circle u know... haha...

haiz... watch movie also cannot meh, father??? ppl need some entertainment u know... not 24/7 study like a mad person...

and i would say my deepest condolensence to 1 of my friend... her father jus passed away...

angels and demons...

2009-05-16T04:49:00.000-07:00

ok, i watch this movie yesterday with a friend... both of us had read the book b4 seeing the show..

i jus wanna tell 1 thing... the plot in the show has been changed... its different from the book bout 70%..

and its not really offending to those who r Christians... so just watch it if u wan... but try not to read the book as it question bout god... which the movie doesnt shows...

so for those who haven read the book, u will find it tat the plot is normal and seems didnt change... but for those who have read the book, u will somehow disapponted...

they skip the CERN and the Mach 5 plane and also the head of CERN... someone in a wheelchair..
and also some interesting part... haiz..

updated... f6 life so far...

2009-05-15T22:31:00.000-07:00

sorry for not updating... no inspiration o something to update... so didnt update lor...

so i have stopped my job at popular and study at mhs...

MHS= Malacca High School ?? no... it should be like tis...

MHS= Malacca High Sucks... ya, tat correct...

why i say suck??? coz its really sucks... toilet sucks like hell, canteen food sucks like hell... basic facilities sucks but they manage to get cluster school award and anugerah sekolah cemerlang...
don know wat wrong with the judge... for god sake, mhs is famous for lompat pagar(ponteng sekolah..)

and those teachers and prefects... piss me off nia.. but only 1 teacher rocks tat is our disiplin teacher, En.Mustafa... he ar... aiyo... the siao and kuai lan type 1.. like my previous school 1... sama perangai...

1st he looks so serious and talk bout school rules... then he touch bout hair and one of my friend kena targetted by him..

Mustafa: wah, manyak hansem awak... macam bintang filem aja..(seriously he was hansem)
JJ: tak adalah...
Mustafa: ada gf tak har??
JJ: tak ada sir..
Mustafa: ini tak laku punya..

lol... all of the hall laugh like hell... and he warned us tat he wan to see our badge at our uniform 2moro after he gave his speech coz we r given 2 badges when we register... nabe... rm15 gone like tat... damn...

Mustafa: kalau rumah tak ada sewing machine, tau apa cara paling senang ??
student: tak tau lar, sir...
Mustafa: aiyo, guna stapler kan sudah boleh...

then other teacher orentation was boring...

then come to sorting day... haiz, i was sorted to 1st class of physics, alpha...

hear our names being called, liao lah when i hear the class being called.. why????
coz... half of the class is own ppl one... out of 15 students, 7 r from sfi...

and our class also boring one... our form teacher.... liao lar, he talk so soft cant hear him at all...
chem teacher also like tat... muet teacher still ok...

and our pa teacher, liao lar we gonna suffer liao.. kuai lan 1 we get... 1st day already scare us by letting us know the format of exam... seriously if u in the class then u will feel it...

tat all for now... and u wanna more complain... go to my blog and find these 2 blogs... Jace chong and blog to let gf finds me...

toilet sucks like hell, so dirty...

boredom 2...

2009-04-30T08:28:00.000-07:00

this is some description bout my astrology sign... i guess it is correct at some points...

VIRGO MAN

Time is precious for Virgo man and if you make him wait, he will consider
that as an insult. He hates to hear criticism and hates to be criticize. If
he is criticizing other people, then he must be influenced by other Zodiac.
He is and he likes to be a perfectionist. He always think he is doing the
right and appropriate thing , and often he thinks he makes no mistake. He is
a bright guy and could accept comments if he thinks it can improve himself.
He is the type who well adjusted to make changes.

He will spent money carefully and spent it worthwhile. He will only
extravagant for his personnel pleasure only. He is quite romantic, a type of
guy who can drive 100 miles just to tell you how much he misses you. If he
does not care about you, he will not even spent a dime to call you locally.
Long distant special low rate call is also out of the question.

He hates rough and crude people. His woman has to be clean and dress well.
He inspects any thing in details beside being a perfectionist, so you could
be lying in your bikini with a perfect figure and he can suddenly comments
you about your big feet. If you gain 2 pounds , he may comments you are
getting too fat. Before going out with this kind of guy, look at yourself
head to toe in the mirror and ask yourself if you are really and entirely
ready. Unless he dates a model, then he will have less comments.

He is neat and tidy, so his life always in a schedule, a fix time to lunch,
the same time to go home. He is well knowledge about food and conscious
about nutrition, so you won't see this guy eating a junk food, or strange
and exotic food for sure.

You will see him in social events or party if only necessary. He is gifted
with acting, so if he says he can not go out with you because he is sick,
then you will belief him. He is a hard to please when it comes to what to
eat, how to work, what kind of a woman to date. He always neat and tidy all
the times, even if he is in the army, he will be the cleanest soldier in the
camp. He likes to speak properly with no slang. He hates laziness and lazy
people. He always act like a boring mature adults, but getting to know him ,
you will know he has his own charm.

He always see things clearly, so he is not the type to be blinded by love.
He is a kind and cool guy, but if constantly irritate with rudeness,
ignorant, or stupidity then he will show you that he is annoyed. You may see
a guy in this Zodiac dress up in an old shirt and old Jean, but if you look
carefully, you will see that his hair is neat and unconsciously he will
touch his hair a lot. His desk is always neat and if he sees small scrap
paper on the floor, he will pick it up or put it in the basket.

People may think he is selfish, because when he says 'No', he really means
it. Any favor asked , he will help but always in his own limit. The more he
see faults in others, the less he wants people to see his. If you want him
to change his faults, try to tell him gently or he could take it as an
insult.

He wants love that comes with quality, so he only has a few loves in his
life. Woman's trick will not work with him. If he breaks up with a woman, he
will also try to avoid all her friends and her environments too. He is very
picky and every breaking up, he will be double careful next time.

He can sweep woman with his charm, but he likes to keep his relationship
like a friend. He likes a sincere self confident woman, neat and clean,
perfect and tidy. A real two 'P' , picky and perfectionist Zodiac.

swine flu... beware

2009-04-28T06:01:00.000-07:00

What is swine influenza?

It is a respiratory disease of pigs caused by type A strains of the influenza virus. It regularly causes high flu outbreaks in pigs but with low death rates. There are four main sub-types of the virus, but the most recent isolated influenza viruses from pigs have been H1N1 viruses.

How does it spread?

Swine flu viruses do not typically infect humans though they do occur through close proximity or contact with infected pigs or contaminated areas. Cases of human-to-human spread have been documented.

What are the symptoms?

The symptoms are similar to those of regular flu:
- Fever
- Lethargy
- Runny nose
- Cough
- Sore throat
- Lack of appetite
- Vomiting and diarrhoea in some cases.

How common is swine flu infection in humans?

In the past reports of about one human swine flu virus infection had been received every one to two years in the United States. From December 2005 till February 2009, 12 cases have been reported.

Has this strain of flu been seen before?

No. Flu mutates constantly, so it is common for new strains to emerge. Pigs can also be infected with both human and avian influenza, and the current circulating swine flu strain appears to contain genetic elements from all three.

Can swine flu be treated with antiviral drugs and flu vaccine?

The swine flu is resistant to two common drugs – Amantadine and Rimantadine. The H1N1 swine flu viruses are very different from human H1N1 viruses. Therefore, vaccines for human seasonal flu would not provide protection. However, a “seed vaccine” has been specifically tailored to this swine flu and will be manufactured if officials deem it necessary.

Can people catch swine flu by eating pork?

No. Swine influenza viruses are not transmitted by food. Eating properly handled and cooked pork and pork products is safe. Cooking pork to an internal temperature of 70ºC and above kills the swine flu virus.

How long is someone with swine flu considered contagious?

People with swine influenza virus infection should be considered potentially contagious as long as they are symptomatic; possibly for up to seven days following the onset of the illness. Children, especially younger children, might potentially be contagious for longer periods.

What can I do to protect myself from the swine flu?

There is no vaccine available right now to protect against the swine flu.

However, you can help prevent the spread of germs that cause respiratory illnesses like influenza by:

- Covering your nose and mouth with a disposable tissue or handkerchief when you cough or sneeze. Throw the tissue in the waste basket after you use it.

- Wash your hands often with soap and water, especially after you cough or sneeze. Alcohol-based hand cleaners are also helpful

- Try to avoid close contact with sick people. - If you get sick with influenza, stay at home and limit contact with others to keep from infecting them.

- Avoid touching your eyes, nose or mouth.

- Consult your nearest healthcare facility if you think you have any of the symptoms.

Which countries have had cases of the swine flu?

The World Health Organisation (WHO) has confirmed human cases of swine flu in Mexico, the United States, Canada and Spain. Only Mexico has reported deaths from the new strain.

Are there any travel restrictions or advisories for Malaysians?

The Health Ministry on April 27 advised Malaysians against travelling to certain places in the United States, Mexico and Canada which have been affected by the swine flu.

What precautions are in place in Malaysia?

- The Health Ministry’s operations room in Putrajaya has started a 24-hour monitoring of the situation. The public can call 03-8881 0200/300 for enquiries.

- Those returning from Latin American countries and found to have flu-like symptoms will be quarantined.

- Health Ministry officials are conducting health screenings on passengers arriving from the United States.

- Thermal scanners will be placed at international airports to speed up the screening process for swine flu.

- Public and private medical practitioners have been instructed to report to the district health office any patient with influenza-like illnesses or severe pneumonia symptoms and who had travelled to the affected countries after April 17.

- Owners of the 797 pig farms nationwide have been ordered to immediately contact the nearest Veterinary Services Department office or the Animal Disease Control Centre if their workers or animals show symptoms linked to the swine flu.

out of boredom....

2009-04-27T22:04:00.000-07:00

i am jus too free to do this thing... i noticed tat some of my friend don like me to tag them... well some is jus do it... haha.... and some leave weird comment... haha....

well some like don like me to tag.. example :

1)chris:
The person that tagged you is:
TOH MING ANN!!!!!!

2)feliz:
The person that tagged you is:
TOH MING ANN!! (innocent sial... suddenly kena...)

but i know they don mean it... haha.. while some seems ok with it..

1)jace :
The person that tagged you is:
Toh Ming Ann

2)teng :
The person that tagged you is:
Ming Ann

and some leave some weird comment... haha... here :

1)chris :
Your first impression of him is:
ermmm.... sorry... i kinda thought he don't like girls(haha... i look like tat too...)

2)feliz :
Your first impression of him is:
NERD!!! WAHAHA..(sorry) (nvm... i already used to it)

3)teng:
Your first impression of him is:
sorry to say..he looked pathetic because he seldom had enough sleep... (merciless...)

4)jace :
Your first impression of him is:
Smart guy..Straight A's student..Hehe.. (well, we r together since standard 1..)

and some funny ones too...

1)chris:
The most memorable moments with him:
talking wif him for almost 4 hours during the midnight (due to lack of sleep the next day, both of us look like zombie) (but thats normal for him) (zombie??? nvm...)

2) If he became your lover, what should he improve at:
STYLE... even tough i only saw his few pic.. but think he really nd to improve this!! gege.... (to tell u, my fashion taste r actually sucks!!!! haha....)

3)teng:
The most memorable thing he has said to you is:
toot...haha.. (lol...)

4)chris:
If he became your lover, what should he improve at:
his sarcasm towards people... ( hard to do it... and i like emoness... it helps me through hard times...)

5)teng:
If he became your lover, what should he improve at:
try to have enough sleep...(haha... no wonder i look like zombie)...

well, tat all... jus too free and did this lo... haha

robbed from someone post...

2009-04-23T19:57:00.000-07:00

JAN-Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.

FEB-Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive.S#*iest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom.Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it.Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends

but rarely shows it. Ho ?ny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside
Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH-Attractive personality. S #xy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.

April-Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive.
Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic. hot but has brains.

MAY-Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike
being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.

JUNE-You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely
that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!!

July-Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times.
Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be with friends ... Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

August-outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control. kind hearted. self
confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an 'every thing's peachy' attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be
loved. hates studying. in need of 'that someone'. longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by 'no pain no gain' caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. 'charming' or 'beautiful' to everyone. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.

sep-Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and
caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.

(this is mine... err... i guess all its says its correct... but some r wrong too... like the brave part...)

oct-Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but
recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

nov-Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. S#xy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.

dec-This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible... better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to
delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting
colds. loves music.

tagged... follow others...

2009-04-23T08:57:00.000-07:00

follow the trend now... tagging!!!!!

1. The person that tagged you is:
Gary and others more... but the 1st is Gary lor

2. Your relationship with him is:
he ah... my gay partner i guess

3. Your first impression of him is:
err.... don know wat to say... only know tat he cares lot bout his hair...

4. The most memorable moments with him:
watching quantum of solace at gsc dp the last week b4 spm test... he blames me if i make him fail... haha....

5. The most memorable thing he has said to you is:
"kia, we go watch movie!!!"

6. If he becomes your lover, you will:
marry him??? lol.... i am quite famous at school for being gay... haha...

7. If he became your lover, what should he improve at:
work seriously during work and save some money... always think of game only

8. If he becomes your enemy, what would you do:
cant do anything... i will do nothing to him....

9. If he becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
don know... maybe coz i owe him too many things ??

10.The most desired thing you want to do for him now is:
hope he enjoys new life in perak...

11. Your overall impression on him:
a very good friend... sometimes very leceh and game addicted...

12. The characteristic you love most about yourself:
lol... err... sarcassing ppl ? jus joking....

13. The characteristic you hate most about yourself:
cant make important decisions!!!!!!!! Damn it....

14. The most ideal person you want to be is:
don know... jus a person who is talented in many things...

15. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
Tx for treating me so good.... i will forever remember all of u...

16. Pass this quiz to 10 people who you want to know how they feel about you:
1.mau(but kena tagged liao)
2.Kinn weng(i know he most probably wont be seeing this)
3.teng(currently taking her driving lesson)
4.chris(tis will help u if u r bored...)
5.Mag(u can try this too...)
6.Joshua(i know u wont be able to tag... but i will jus put...)
7.Jace
8.feliz(well, u can try too...)
9.Tiffany Yeow
10.Thye Siang (dead blog..lol)

17. Who is 6 having a relationship with:
no 3!!! haha....

18. is 9 a male or female:
female

19. If 7 and 10 were together, would it be a good thing:
sadly 7 didnt like to be gay

20. What is 2 studying at the moment:
a lvl at ktj( kolej tunku jaafar)

21. When was the last time you had a chat with 3:
few hours ago when i write this post

22. What kind of music does 8 like:
dunno... something tat has piano o harp in it i guess...

23. Does 1 have any siblings:
yeah...sure... 1 bro and 1 sis if i not wrong

24. Will you woo 3:
if i wanna kill by no 6... so its not gonna happen

25. How about 7:
we r gay partner since small....

26. Is 4 single:
no... sadly tat her bf is in ns...

27. What's the surname of 5:
lim

28. What's the hobby of 5:
err... don angry if i am wrong... clubbing i guess...

29. Do 5 and 9 get along well:
they dunno each other

30. Where is 2 studying at:
ktj at negeri 9

31. Say something casual about your eyes:
it is always half open....

32. Have you tried developing feelings for 5?
nope... she has already a bf too... but i did develop for 4...

33. Where does 9 live:
not sure...

34. What colours does 4 like:
no idea... all of the colors she looks nice in i guess...

35. Are 5 and 1 good friends
don know each others....

36. Does 7 like 2:
unless jace wan to get himpit by him... 2 is huge in size...

37. How did you get to know 2:
same school....

38. Does 1 have any pets:
i don think he have....

39. Is 7 the sexiest person in the world:
girls will probably think he's cute... sexy... he is... seriously...

tat all.... tata...

russell peter...

2009-04-23T07:47:00.000-07:00

if u r damn bored and have nothing to do, this clip may kill your boredom for 1 hour plus... there r 8 parts and here is the link to its video...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B-xrmKPzZE8&feature=channel

enjoy the show... and don feel offended... he is jus merely joking... if u r offended, then i am sorry....

speed test...

2009-04-21T08:53:00.000-07:00

31 words

Typing Test

reunion...

2009-04-18T19:41:00.000-07:00

i have a story to tell here... for me, i don know its actually nightmare o blessing for me to be at this place but i think its both... i was put at this place since 2 years old coz my parents r not free and i go to tat place almost everyday till i am form 3... how many years ????

wait, omg!!!! its 14 years... imagine being at the same place almost 355 o 356 days per year at that place for 14 years... haha... but we already get used to it....

we used to have a night tuition... and being taught by another teacher... sadly he is not here coz i really miss him coz without his and my tuition teacher help, i won be able to get this good result..
and one more thing, my night tuition teacher, his name is Mr.Neo and i swear to god i am not lying... he really looks like Albert Einstein.. i am not lying... jus tat i don have the pic to show it

and we have bbq and photo session yesterday... we hope tat this can be continued for next time...

the guests... sadly we arrive late due to car breakdown....

the bbq session starts... ppl busy choosing their own bbq food
the guys photo.... haha..
everybody is bbqing their own food... don rush!!!!!
this is it... the tuition aka "Prison" for... 14 years i spend it at here...
the girls pic... not i take one... don look me like i am the one... haha
saw the link at the bottom of the pic ? this photo is taken by him... i am innocent...
me and others sedang bbqing... haha...
oi... jace mana u tengok ? chuih bo is it... haha... others seems very careful with their chicken wings... haha....
camwhore session starts...
the cake for the warden of the prison... Happy birthday!!!!!!
singing session... one candle is used to made her real age unknown...
the warden and those ex-convicts...
warden and those male convicts... haha...
of course females r not exempted too...
me and the warden of the prison... observe the next person is imitating me...
see ? don copy mah... each should have their own pose...
a new pose... but the next guy copy its again... haiz...
see ? speechless...

wan ting and miss lee...
jessica and miss lee...
the cake is being chopped... haiz... ah xiang tak sabar makan d...
we used to be like close brothers... and we will always be...

Fate/God/Destiny, have mercy...

2009-04-14T06:32:00.000-07:00

my friends have their own trouble... well, recently both of my friend come to me and talk bout their problem.... coz as friend i will hear it out... well, both talks bout their social life...

one of them has her mum interrupted her love life... maybe its coz her mum was a teacher and look down on uneducated person... i don mean to criticize your mum... tat wat he and i think... keep it a secret...

and another one... well its worse i should say... recently many things happen to her... friendship is threatened and misunderstandings comes out... but tat not the worst part... the worst part is tat her bf gotta enter ns for 3 months and then he will go to kl to study while she will be pursuing hers at mmu... sad... but everyone has their own path to go...

i don understand why they r being toyed ????? why ??? they didnt do anything wrong... so they didnt deserve this... why r u treating them like this ?

i really hope this message will be passed to any of u... if it really happen, then it would be a miracle...

why don u jus toy me and leave them both alone ? since u have already toy me numerous time so this time it wont make a difference... and i deserve to be toyed as i have done many unforgiven, shameless and undespicable actions in my life... i reallt regret it... so its ok if u wanna toy with me... u wan me to fail at my jpa also can, cant apply for mmu also can, wan me enter form 6 and fail stpm also can...

Jus leave them alone... why don u change your target to me ? pls... let them be... they suffered enough d...........

troubles...

2009-04-08T17:24:00.000-07:00

lately some of my friends r having troubles...

some r my schoolmates... whr they jus having difficulty for finding a place to stay and accomodation after they have decided wat they want to pursue... good luck to u guys...

while some will be going mmu o form 6...

and me ? still damn pathetically stuck.... and someone is luckier than me...

no offence here 1st... jus merely taking an example..

well, one of my friend situation is : form 6 o mass com at kdu... where is either form 6 or a fixed course at a fixed college...(not sure fixed is the right word to use..)

me : for now i am waiting jpa... if i didnt get, it would be form 6 o ??????

coz i still don know wat course to take and where to take the course... so, feliz... u r luckier than me... i hope u will decide wisely... all the best...

actually don mind going form 6 despite all my friends and my elder bro say its wasted... ya, i know i get good result(not showing off here) but wat wrong if i go form 6 ?

haiz, i don know wat to do... i jus gonna move step by step...

always being disturbed at slp

2009-04-07T03:52:00.000-07:00

slept at 2.30 in the morning today... being wake up at 6.30 by my mum saying tat i may be late for the undang lecture... got up and prepare myself..

wait for the instructor till 7.30 b4 he miss call me... fall asleep while waiting... wat to do ?
i only slept for 4 hours... haha

then went to the msdc... try to register to hear for the undang lecture... suddenly...

the girl at counter said : Bang, tiap-tiap selasa sekarang tak ada kpp dah

wat the hell ? omg... even jpj need to take rest... i don know why... U know wat ? u wasted my time... its not the instructor fault coz he himself even don have the idea... so i don blame him

so he fetch me home at 8... reach home nothing to do... so watch twilight which i borrow from friend...

the show was ok... not really 1 star as rated by the star... i guess the rater didnt read the story b4 seeing the show... well, edward looks cool when he chuckles... haha.... and alice is jus so damn beautiful... she should acting as bella... no offence here...

and i wan to thank one of my friend... thanks for introducing this book to me and borrow me the dvd... but sorry to tell u and i hope it wont make u angry... the sound quality actually sucks... its like the cinema recorded sound... but thanks anyway...

and the most important is tat u convert me from dota-addicted to book-addicted... haha... book-addicted is way more better than dota-addicted...

SO, THANK U SO MUCH CHRIS FOR CHANGING ME... HAHA...

and went on9 for awhile... till bout 12 and wanted to slp... laying at bed, mind dozing off and suddenly my mum called me jus to help her type a message... i walked to my mum office and helped her and she told me to eat... ya, i plan to slp without eating

went home and eat some porridge with fish... and watch mythbusters... the show is damn nice...
and went to slp at 2 b4 being interrupted again by my mum... nvm..

lone survivor ????

2009-04-02T06:45:00.000-07:00

lately didnt update blog... due to no inspiration and too busy preparing for jpa interview..
actually tis post should be posted up yesterday but i have no time for it...

so, yesterday was ? not april fool... but all my form 5 friends had gone... chris, teng and tiff... ya, they stop working while i still gotta continue...

working life without them feels weird although i still have others friends to accompany me...
and i gotta hang on this mundane and quite bored life for... wait let me check... bout 38 days which do not include my rest day... 38!!!!!! wat am i supposed to do ? Nvm... i gotta find a way myself...

and i gonna miss a lot of things.... teng's abnormal loud voice when she laugh, chris weird action
and reaction when something happens and finally, tiff laughter when i joke with her... i gonna miss this three things very much...

nasib tat four of us still contact with each other... friendship still intact... Haha..

and teng, jus faster get it done... enrol in mmu.. all the best to u and chris... hope both of u will enjoy your new life at there...

and not forgetting some of my friend who would be studying there such as gary and others...
all the best.. we still r friends forever although we walk different path...

as for me ? i still not sure... mine was last minute... now wait for jpa result... if i didnt get, most probably i will be staying at here... so its either form 6 o mmu... haha... Gary, i might be entering mmu and take same course with u so be prepared... haha... joking only

first to come, last to leave... sob

2009-03-25T06:23:00.000-07:00

1st of Dec 08 : i entered popular with a friend who jus finish our spm... so lets count me 1st and she
is 2nd..

5th of Jan 09 :another friend of mine entered.. work as cashier....

later at Jan 09 : not sure bout the real date she entered, she is the fourth and also work as cashier

so four of us, all who had finished our spm, work at popular..

and times flies till...

15th of Mac 09 : my 2nd friend was forced to resign by her mum due to something... sad tat she had to leave us... a supporting and 'siao' friend...

22th of Mac 09 : my 3rd friend also leave this job... her reason ? when i ask her she say she is tired... ya, i agreed... its wears out u physically and mentally working as cashier

31st of Mac : my 4th friend is going to resign too... same reason as the 3rd... only left few days... sob...

me ? wanted to resign but cant... i gave them my word tat i can work till 15th of May... and my living cost all depends on me now... technically my mum didnt give me any living fee... so i use my salary to support myself... until now all those meal i have is using my own money..

1st of April 09 : another staff is being transfer to johor to become manager at tat outlet.. she is very helpful... sad tat i she had to go...

4 times of blow in a row... trying my best to take it.... hope i can hang on for the next 1 and the half month... sure i will be bored...

i guess i will be lonely... and i think its my destiny to be a loner... haiz..

P.S : i am not emo while writing this post... so don suddenly ask me wheter i am fine o not

adios, my friend

2009-03-22T08:05:00.000-07:00

finally the moment arrived...

the moment where u would leave me..
the moment where i couldn't see u as much as now...
the moment where we cant used to do things we normally do....
how i wish this moment wouldnt arrive
but
we live in a world of reality but not fantasy
where reality is harsh and cruel
so i got to accept it...
and i will be tough...
although for the first few moments i will be sad...
i jus had to continue on with my life...
i don hope much from u...
i jus hope tat u will be happy all the times...

this is for both of my friends... its sad tat they have to leave... they help me so much and they r quite funny... i guess i will laugh and chuckle less after today...

and FATE seems to be toying with both of them... one is opposed by mother while other had her bf went for NS...

i jus hope both of them always happy and all the best when they further their studies at mmu...
good luck and all the best in the future, girls...

stuck again...

2009-03-12T06:16:00.000-07:00

after my mum know my result, haha.... she change completely...

b4 spm:

me: mum, i wan to go mmu study...
mum: don think bout it, i don have money... u jus go form 6
and i already don care at tat time and jus thinking bout high school life...

after spm result out, change completely...
busy looking at newspaper for scholarship... i know your good intention...

jus tat..

i don know wat course to take... the only thing tat pass through my mind if go college is a level..
but now i really don mind form 6... coz is not easy to score straight A's...

and actually i really lazy to apply and i don mind form 6...
but i will apply and try my luck coz my friend call me to try...

hope i will get one of it... haha

spm result...

2009-03-12T03:13:00.000-07:00

firstly i wan to say sorry for not updating... gary, really bo inspiration to blog... so i didnt blog lo...
ok, most of us know today is the day where we know our price for our hardwork...
and i wan to stress this point : the reason i blog bout result is not to act, but to answer my friends question

Friends: hey ming, how many a's u got ?

i was asked this question by mostly everyone i know.... so i was really lazy to answer them anymore... tat why i go this way...

and here the moment.... i got straight A's... but i not really proud of it... coz SPM is an exam where the band of marks r always changing... so we still really didnt know where is our standard....

for those who aim real high, when they see their paper and found out tat is not wat they expected, they turn emo... o angry shouting here and there...

tat why i say its better not to aim too high o else the impact will be bigger...

after result we went to mcd and then watch Dragonball:Evolution with practically a waste of money movie... poof, 10 ringgit gone like tat... haha

i will post up the pic after i receive from my friend...

poseidon at popular!!!

2009-03-01T06:05:00.000-08:00

it was yesterday when it happen... bout 3 o'clock... outside was becoming dark and it rains afterward...
so normally the ceiling would mengalir keluar a bit only... who call AEON Sdn Bhd don wan to repair the celing although we complain...
mana tau poseidon happen...Lol... it was like rain in the shop... water jus fall like hell... and on top of books somemore... our staff quickly take out all the books and the cartons to dry place... slowly the water flow to cd side and chinese dept side...
Tx god tat stationery was safe zone... or else we don have any place to put the books... revision dept also kena... many of the books r soaked... lasted like for half an hour... water falling non stop... then all the books r removed from the flood area d...
then the cleaner come to suck the water... but ?
they left us alone... jus suck outside our store... scared that nando will kena... i was like : wat the hell ? ppl here have more serious trouble and u suck to keep nando dry and let us wet?

then here the fun part... wash out the water from popular... many ways r used:

1)use mop
2)use broom(for house 1)
3)use broom(slightly larger,rectangular)
4)use the water pusher broom(long with flat surface)
5)use cardboard
6)use platform tat r used to put promotion papers(its quite long)

The 6th way is the best coz its very fun... i used it and i enjoyed it very much...firstly u go to the back(starting point)... then u jus put the platform at the floor and push the water all the way out to the main door... but must be careful or else u will trip and soaked....
and i didnt drop... coz i am professional at sliding... haha(ss)

then time for checking books... see which can claimed from jaya jusco.... and its many too... bout 10 cartons of medium sized(i agak only)... money is jus gone like tat...
and we even invited a well known chef to have autograph session and it need to be cancelled...

sorry coz no pic can be shown.. coz handphone r not allowed during work...
Lastly, screw the management of AEON Sdn Bhd!!!!!!!!

wat happened for past two day...

2009-02-23T04:22:00.000-08:00

sorry for not updating... yesterday cant on9... modem not working... so yesterday nothing interesting happen... but saturday ? SOMETHING DID HAPPEN... and its damn funny...
so it was already at night... reaching 10 if i not mistaken... so the no of customer is slowing decreasing... the flood subsided... Haha... so eventually i get bored... so wat i did ? its damn funny...
i acted like a girl... change my post and my voice and even my action... Lol.... my collague at my department was laughing like hell seeing me... i laugh too seeing her face when she smile
then i go to disturb my another collague at other department... i approach her using my girl personality... guess wat ? she thought i was a customer b4 turning up to see tat it was me and shouted : oi, alamak!! she even wanted to kick me.... Haha... looks like i have the talent to act...Lol...
today i was pissed off by a mcd staff... she is damn dumb... she wanted to buy blank paper and her budget was 10 ringgit... i show her a pack with 450 sheet in with the price of 10.35... she stand there then decided to choose the cheaper one... 100 sheet at 3.45 so if u buy three u will get 300 at 10.35 too... but she bought only 2... then later awhile she came back to change to the 450 sheet... i feel like saying to her "kan saya sudah cakap ? tak mau dengar... kena boss marah baru mau tukar... padan muka"

result ?

2009-02-20T20:10:00.000-08:00

so tat a time i receive sms from my friend telling me tat spm result will be out at 23/2... i don know whether its reliable or not... normally we get our result at somewhere during march... and honestly, i am not trying to act here, i jus don care bout when the result is coming out... watever the result is, whether is good or ok or bad, i will jus accept it... but i do hope getting straight A's but i still can accept it if i fail to achieve my target...
for those who aim too high, better have a mental preparation or else u will be damn sad...
didn't score straight doesn't mean tat your journey ends here....
i jus hope tat i wouldn't have to see my friends sad faces coz i will be sad too seeing them...

clarification....

2009-02-20T07:06:00.001-08:00

i jus make it short.. the girl in thye siang pic is the friend which i mention very kind and supportive... screw u man,ts!! Haha.... why u wan to play with me... i can play with u at everything but not on love aspect... pls lar... u will know and feel my pain later when someone do this to u back.... to my crush, i am sorry tat i say her instead of u... i jus don wan to trouble u... i hope u will forgive me... pls... and my friend on the pic, i hope u can forgive me too for using u... damn u both!!!!!!!!!!!!

stuck at a point...

2009-02-20T05:08:00.000-08:00

so i was asked by my good bro and his gf... 'actually which part of her tat makes u cant let go of her ?'
i tell u sincerely... even i myself don know the reason why i cant let go.. i just couldnt.. i hope u will understand... maybe we have different philosophy in this aspect...
maybe it jus tat my feelings toward her is too deep... i admit a point here: its my 1st time having a crush on someone... its like the crush of isabella towards edward in the twilight book...
and they always say : there is someone better than her and its already in front of your eyes, so why cant u give up on her and chase the other ?
but i tell u...
it not easy for me to forget bout her and its seems impossible for me to do so.... i know its one way relationship and i cant do anything bout unless she decided to make it two way... but i wont force her to do it...
and i don wan to see her sad... if i do this now i will surely hurt her feelings deeply... and i jus don like to hurt my friends feeling... seeing her sad will only made me sad too...
now i was blur again... wat should i do ? wat is the best solution to this matter ? for now i still don know...
bout the other girl (i don mean the girl i have crush with) ? thanks goodness she understands me... she is very supportive... she helps me a lot in this matter...
my good bro, its not tat i don treasure her... i do care bout her too... but for now i don have feelings for her...
bout future ? i don know... i may have feelings for her coz anything can happen....

for u, Gary.. haha

2009-02-20T04:58:00.000-08:00

b4 i go to main point, i wanna say sorry for not updating my blog... coz i cant on9 for last 2 days... and my acc has been used to send those damn links... i jus click it when my friend pass it to me... i didnt know tat i was being used.. i was sorry for all the trouble caused... so gary, nothing special happened.. jus tat i bought her back another lion... btw, her name is Leony...
and now she seems to treat me better and closer to me... i wonder she wants to take another step forward ?[P.S: if u read my post(not u gary, i mean her), can u give me an answer ?]

tired...

2009-02-17T07:08:00.000-08:00

it was actually my rest day today... but it seems i don rest at all... slp at 4 coz of those freaking mosquitoes... then wake up at 8 for awhile and slp back again till 11... doing wat i normally do... and was ready to go out at 2...and this is my plan (follow by order):

1)withdraw money from bank
2)take my ic back from jaya jusco
3)pass my ot form(for claiming money) to my manager
4)go to keh seng primary

well, i did all those 4 things but with a price : tiredness...

i go to maybank to withdraw... and realised tat my ic still at jj... this bank need to see your ic to withdraw which i think is stupid... RHB bank no need to do this...
so i ran back to my mum car and rush to jj... running from my car till popular to pass my ot form then till staff entrance... run to my mum car and we went back to bank again to withdraw...
then i go down to the school... meets those little rascals... still the same... bad attitude, no discipline... well, i wouldnt care more coz i am not teaching anymore... its my friend.. i wonder he can tahan those little kids or not...
later go tesco to buy things and go to bukit cina to eat the old uncle wan tan mee.. still delicious and many as usual... a medium-sized bowl can stuff u till death if u r not the person can eat a lot...later reach home and straight fell on bed... the guy in red shirt is the new coach... no one expected tat my 1st job b4 working at popular is as a drum instructor teaching these little rascals...>.<

noobies(new students) trying to learn how to play

expected the unexpected....

2009-02-16T06:31:00.000-08:00

so is different from wat i expected... i thought tat i would be scolded by him for wat happened earlier today... but at 9 something he came to work and ask me whether i got sms his gf... i say no and we were like in a cold war... we didnt talk to each other until my bro gf come to help us to clarify the matter... so it was a series of misunderstanding... but we still didnt talk... i guess he need time to cool down... ya, he need to cool down... after like 5 something, he went back to usual... we started to talk and joke with each other... another thing happened... i left my ic at staff entrance... well, since we r regarded as tenant by jaya jusco, so we need to pass our ic or driving licence to get a pass... OMG!!! i was really careless coz i was rushing tat time... my mum was waithing outside...
and i need to extend my working period till end of may... looks like i no need to take my driving lesson d.... haiz...here the pic of jaya jusco tenant pass...

the result...

2009-02-15T15:42:00.000-08:00

so time for the result of the game... i am sorry 1st b4 i wrote this post... last 2 day i cant blog coz my bro is using and only 1 person can use at a time... so, gary don complain to me afterwards... the game is just simple... i play it with 3 girls... so wat i do ? doing wat ppl normally does at valentine day... give chocolate... gary, not comic lar... i know i like comic but i am not crazy enough to give it.... unless 1 of the girls like it but apparently none of them like it... so here's their reaction :

1st person : accepted my gift... the funny thing ? later awhile she confused thinking why i would
give her something... thought i was a little otc (otak tak center)... finally she realised
is Valentine day... OMG!!! wat the h***? i was speechless...

2nd person : just accepted casually and say thanks.... nothing really happened...

3rd person : accepted it... but somehow she give me the impression of hating me or angry at me
i was kinda afraid tat time... then jus suddenly called me to take a look at our locker
(its actually mine... she jus share it with me coz lazy to bend down.. her locker is at
bottom) and ? suprised.... i don expect anyone to give me any present... well is jus a
lion keychain... his name is Lenny though... Lol.... tx very much

later at night the 3rd person came and give my good bro a medicine for his ulcer... and ? this makes things mire complicated... it was jus a friend merely giving something to friend... easier to say, care at the wrong time... and two of the other staff started to change it into another version... making my bro worried bout his gf will angry... this incident, i was clearly the outsider... my role is jus as spectator... then now i am being dragged in... ARRGGGHH!!!! i hate it... sure later when i go to work i will need to hear him bulls**t around blaming me for wat happened earlier this midnight... Pls, i am innocent here...

2009-02-13T19:41:00.000-08:00

so one of my daily routine now if i get to on9 is reading my friends blog...
well mostly the blog i follow is my schoolmates and classmates... only a few friends from other schools.... and ? there r big difference betweeen the two 'clans'...
my classmates mostly will write bout wat happening and with happy emotion... the other batch ?
expressing all their feelings in blog and most of them r worried and sad... me ? i am mixed.... haha...
sometimes when i read their blog i think to myself.... and ? i changed totally... being too emo sometimes after read their blog and think too much... well, i write this post juss to express my thought... Btw, i am looking forward to the results of the 'game' haha....

V for ? Valentine lor....

2009-02-13T07:03:00.000-08:00

so an hour later will be valentine day.... i am sure it would be interesting for some and dull for some... anyway i am expecting something 2moro from my bro... i know wat he wan to give his gf but they change at outside popular... damn it, we missed the important show!!!! haha....
as for other staffs, i don know lor... i think most of them would jus treat tat day like a normal day and continue with their work.... i played a game and is already started... jus waitng for other players 2moro and see wat their reaction... btw, all the players are girl except me... Lol...
i am expecting much fun 2moro and confused looks exchanged... ^o^ Haha.... and something has changed... Teng is not going jb anymore... so it would be a good news to my good bro... U r damn lucky u know.. not like me... lol

i am innocent...

2009-02-12T09:43:00.000-08:00

i really don get it at all.... my name is suddenly called by someone and i was told tat a girl which is the one of the staff at my working place misses me very much... tat time i was behind both of them so i didnt catch clearly wat she says... Ok, both are girls... who knows tat at popular only have 3 male staff (me, my good bro and a male cleaner) and 20 female staff ?
so i asked for confirmation... and she told me tat the other girl misses me... i know she is just joking so i replied her joke with another joke i made myself.... so i said i will find the other girl later at night... somehow i don know wat happened to her and she push my head... wat the hell ? i did nothing wrong right ? so i went home and tried to apologise to her... to my suprise, she somehow trying to make me hot... saying why i didnt find the other girl but her ? i lose my usual thinking and patience and phone the other girl... well,if u(i mean the girl) read it, we talk for 1 hour... thanks to her very much tat i cool down after talk to her... then i was being bombed again by u again when i find u... now i really quite pissed off... don blame me for watever happen next... i cant gurantee wat will i do.... i will try my best to keep my patience...

use some common sense

2009-02-09T06:55:00.001-08:00

so today was the sorting day for my outlet... 2moro is the stock take day for my outlet lor....
so many ppl come to help us to sort our stocks... from other outlet..
still the same... more women than men... i jus don know why...
so it reaches night...
OMG!!! one of our pre count list is not printed an found by my outlet head...
her expression change totally... later my dept head got lectured by her during briefing...
as for me... i was damn tired..
i ran from the staff office to cashier counter to check the label whether is useable or not
so i ran back and forth more than 5 times... i don know exactly how many times....
and i was starting run out of breath and sweating... and while i run i slide... well, my shoe thread was worn out... so its slippery... so i slide to slow my speed and avoid bang into something but i banged into my admin, Carmen. i really sorry very much... its an accident... i called her to give me way and she go to left... since i left sided so i also turn left and we bang each other... then here comes the frustrated thing... my good bro joke with me saying "change brake lar.. brake tak makan d"... he mean my shoes... i can accept it but he do it at wrong time... i was already start to get hot d and yet he still do it... he should know when to joke and when to be serious... thank to god tat my patience container is big and can accept big amount... or else i don know wat will happen between both of us... i may raise my fist and give him one... so next time pls use some common sense bro.... i hope u wont do it again

very confused...

2009-02-06T11:21:00.000-08:00

for last two days my good bro sort of 'tembak' me as much as he can...
especially say i am like a log.. don know how to turn and just stand straight...
wat he means tat i should be more proactive and care more for her...
somehow he say tat i don care for her and like a coward...
the second statement i admit.. i was coward when it comes to this especially face to face..
But u say tat i didnt care bout her ? u are mistaken 100% u know..
but i don blame u... just tat sometime i wonder and doubt tat whether i should ask for your advice....
coz sometime u give me more problem and frustration rather than help u know bro...
your gf and she is a totally different person... and don expect your tactic will work on every girl u know...
wat should i do ? i really don have idea... can someone help me out of this ?

arrggh....

2009-02-06T10:51:00.000-08:00

i was damn angry for the past few hours...
i woke up at 11 pm to on9... who knows tat the connection got problem...
waited for 4.5 hours b4 can on9 to read others blog and write one myself...

sure lol....

2009-02-05T07:13:00.000-08:00

so today as usual... nothing really changed.... but later at night was quite funny....
well i will go to johor for 3 days somewhere at march... 3 person are selected... me, a girl and my heng tai gf... at first when i was told by my sup tat i go i was quite happy and sad at same time...
we wondered who is the third person and guess it may be my heng tai gf...
so i go in and ask my outlet head... who knows tat she is the 3rd person ?
i tell him and he start cursing me and the others... well, ITS NOT MY FAULT!!!! don blame me....
then he was very sad... i feel sad too u know...

feeling happy for my heng tai

2009-02-04T07:32:00.000-08:00

so today my heng tai and i work same shift.... we eat together at 5 and we go down to buy something....
rupanya is bread for her gf lor... how nice of him...
i wish tat i would have the chance to do so but currently i am single...
then my good bro show me wat she wrote to him....
damn it man... i was honestly jealous at both of them but i feel happy for him
at least someone would care bout him now coz he lived through hell for the past few years... i wish both if them the best in their future and stay as long as they can....